Monday, November 13, 2006

Woe is me ...

Here is my lovely Phantom curled up in bed with me on the weekend. Poor little man had a tummy ache (the noxious gas he emitted regularly was proof of that). He is back to his usual gorgeous, and sweet smelling self, I am not.

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After a month of weaning myself off a prescribed medication I am now off it completely. The withdrawal effects are hideous. I have headaches, dizziness, blurred vision, the shakes and sometimes staggers, pins and needles in my face, shocks (like little explosions in my head), nausea and so much more. The all over body rash I had last week seems to be going (When I say all over - think inside mouth, ears, nostrils and all exposed parts too). Needless to say there is very little art happening at the moment and 'keeping up appearances' in terms of my day job is proving difficult.

What is scary (I think that may be an understatement) is that while I may 'get away with' being medication free for a time period, it is unlikely to be a realistic life option. I chose to free myself from the medication because the side effects on it were not so great either.

So, woe is me, for the night, and tomorrow I will again lift my eyes - focus on Jesus - and in doing so see all that is good in my life. I will also meet with my doctor, and again examine options.

Can I say, if you see someone today who looks like they might need a hug - give them one. Better to have one too many than one too few.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh dear Julie, I am sorry you are dealing with all that. I hope there can be some resolution to the medication and whatever it is for. I am sending you many hugs and waving the wand to make all these affects vanish!!
XOXO

Kelly Y said...

Julie,

I have just sent off a big cyber hug - has it arrived yet!!!!
Let me know if there is anything I can do for you - you know washing,cleaning ( not claiming to be a domestic goddess, my house is proof enough but would be happy to lend a hand).
Hope the week brings you lots of smiles and sunshine.
Take care
Kel

jessica said...

oh, not good to feel sick....kitty too. take care of yourselves.

Dotee said...

((((Julie))) ....I am sending YOU a hug as I think you need it more than any of my other friends.

Am so, so sorry to hear you are having such a horrible reaction to with drawing from this medication. It must be very difficult for you. Wish there was something I could do for you.

I am glad you have a faith in a higher power. And hope this is giving you some comfort.

You are very brave to go off this medication.

Much love to you and to Mr Stinky b-u-m Phantom.

I love you

Dotee xoxo

Natalie B said...

Hi Julie

Hope you are on track soon my dear. Nothing worse than feeling crook. Sending lots of big hugs to you my dear. Natxx

Lisa said...

Big hugs to you Julie. Sorry you're feeling icky.

Julie H said...

Thank you all!

It means so much to have support.

Today I am sooooo much better. And after a great chat with my doctor have looked at some alternatives. Should be back on track soon.

Hugs to you all.

One Crabapple said...

oh Jules ! I hate to hear this news!

I don't want you to suffer this way.

Ohh I had a weaning similair to this...but we have to talk. nOoooo, my email is NOT fixed yet....boo.

Will you ask Dotee for my work addy when you are feeling up to it ??? I would love to talk more and see how you are doing.

Anyway, back to your story. I so wish I could do SOMETHING TO COMFORT YOU ! Oh you are probably having a hard time sleeping too. That little kitty kat must have been quite an addition to your woes with the little emissions ! oh dear ! laughing. We do love them even in all of thier GLORY don't we tho?

This kitty is so pretty. Marked like that Old Scrappy Cat I have coming by. You remember him ?

no, no ART I can imagine. I bet you are coming out of your skin. I Hope you have time off of work and don't have to deal with the little angels right now....and you know how I just said ANGELS right ? oh I see tht you do say that you are indeed working right now too...oh man. I am hearing you and hurting for you.

Well you made me laugh about the cookies. Thank you so much. I love the idea that it was worth the cost if it made you feel even a tiny better in the moment.

Dearest Jules I am as proud as I can be over your toughing it out thru this have done a more gradual process becuase i worry that it can be risky the way you are going. You are going to the doc soon ? Please do. I know, they just want the next pill / med for you .. but sometimes I find I don't know everything and once in awhile they do have a good idea. Hang in there please !If I was closer I would bring some hot lemonade and ginger tea and maybe find something for that crazy rash driving you so mad. Witch hazel give you any relief ? If they itch...you know the doc told me Preparation H...I know I know ! seriously !But it worked and it dries CLEAR .

Love You Jules.
S.

Julie H said...

Hi Sandy, you are so, so kind. I will be in touch. I had a wonderful chat with my equally amazing doctor yesterday - despite the fact I knocked my cup of tea over oh his desk!!!

It is getting better every day!

carmel said...

Hi Julie,
Ditto to all the above comments - hope you feel well again soon. Do let us know if you wish to postpone swaps etc? as I know no one will object. Feet up and relax/meditate, just go on your deck and look at the beautiful Albany coast. Love, light and hugs, Carmel xx

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so poorly. I hope you get all better soon.
My sheltie had that same problem night before last...dogs and flatulence...not pretty...